I've been writing here since late 2004. Back then, I was unmarried, not enrolled in seminary, and I had JUST changed party affiliation on my voter registration.
I wrote pretty sporadically back then - only a few posts each month. Everything was so ambiguous to me at that time that I felt I was stumbling through the dark. Or whistling (except that I can't whistle). I still remember laying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, wondering if my questions would end in apostasy or atheism. I cried about that, scared to lose the thing that was so precious to me - faith - but also just as scared to lose the semblance of comfort and belonging I still felt so strongly in the Evangelical world. There was a part of me fighting to ignore the doubts and questions and disillusion, if only to retain that comfort.
Eventually, I lost that comfort, but I never lost my faith.
It wasn't until 2008 that I got really serious about blogging here. I had a painful experience with a would-be mentor that woke me up to cold reality, but up till then I thought getting a book deal was going to be relatively easy. Naive, to be sure, but until then momentum had been going in my favor. That "momentum" ended almost as quickly as it had begun, and I was left with a bad taste in my mouth. I was bored and tired of my manuscript, but I didn't want to give up on writing...
For the last couple of weeks, EmergingChristian.com has maintained an average daily visitor count that I'm quite excited about - it's taken several years, but I have loved the conversations and friendships I have found along the way.
A lot of people tell me, "I read your blog, but I never have anything to add to the conversation, so I don't comment." That's fine, but I always encourage them (and YOU) that conversations are what this blog is about. Conversations are what started my own spiritual evolution (or devolution, depending on your vantage) and there's a layer of richness and depth that's added here when YOU speak up.
Either way, the fact that you visit here - that you read my sometimes nonsensical rants - means a lot to me, and your participation in these conversations deeply affects my own faith journey. Thank you.
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