On Sunday, right after returning from vacation, my friend Adele and I joined a couple of atheists from www.irreligiosophy.com for a discussion about religion, belief, doubt, science - all sorts of subjects. It was a lot of fun - Chuck and Leighton are really nice guys. They'll be posting the discussion online, probably later this week...

But I had a sneaking suspicion during the podcast, that I am not as articulate as I sometimes-think. OR, maybe more specifically: I'm more of a heretic, casually, than my writing suggests. OR, alternatively, I should do better preparation before I talk about such weighty issues as the nature and power of God.

The truth is I tend to talk about faith either with very close friends who understand my faith journey, or with atheists and agnostics whose judgment I don't fear (because their judgment rarely comes).

Putting those sorts of conversations into the public eye (ear) in all their gritty, unprepared (unedited) rawness suddenly seems daunting.

Moreover, I do a lot of public speaking in my professional and academic life. I regularly emcee local events and present in meetings, classrooms, even churches... I realize, now, how vastly removed that sort of speaking is from the terrifying vacuum of an open Skype line and a tough question like: "if you aren't certain about the omnipotence of God, then how do you explain Scripture about humankind being formed in God's image?" Stuff like that.

But I guess when it comes down to it, I would rather be talking about these things openly - giving other folks permission to ask questions and discuss beliefs they're embarrassed or unsure of. So if you read this blog regularly and think I'm a heretic, the podcast won't change your mind. If you like some of what I say, but I make you nervous - well, be patient with me. If you love me and fear for my salvation... give me time. I'm working all this out. So's Adele. So are you. We're all in it together, and God is very big: big enough to forgive my ignorance and impiety - maybe even big enough to forgive my certainty...

More immediately - I hope I get more opportunity to practice webcasting/podcasting. It's not easy to get used to.

4 comments:

Existential Punk said...

i think you sounded great, Peter! i think you are one of the more open and honest people i know because you question, doubt, rethink, ponder, etc., which makes for a much more authentic, holistic life and faith. i think we were the perfect pair and have been thinking we should start our own podcast show together. What do you think?

Adele

Peter said...

Thanks Adele ;) It WAS a kick!

Doing it more often sounds like fun! Let's talk...

Rachel H. Evans said...

Just found your blog and am happy I did. Looks like we both have an "evolving" faith. I really appreciate your perspective and will definitely be back.

(Hi, Adele! Fancy seeing you here!)

Brent said...

Did you know at one point in medieval Europe the Catholic church considered you a heretic if you believed vacuum could exist.

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