I’m kind of a late bloomer:
- I started public school (after homeschool) in 8th Grade.
- My voice didn’t begin changing till I was 17.
- I remember arguing as a teen, that racism didn’t really exist in America anymore (easy to say when your entire community is white).
- I didn’t get my driver’s license till my senior year of high school.
- My first kiss was at 18…
- Didn’t need to shave till my freshman year of college…
- First serious girlfriend at 20…
- I didn’t realize Christians could be Democrats until I was 24 (that’s when I began learning that life is painted in a lot of shades of gray).
5 years later – at 29 – I’m wrestling with vegetarianism. Am I late to the game, again? My friend Becca became a vegetarian at 16, and continued for 17 years. While she eats some meat (humane, free range) now, she certainly “got it” early on.
My good friend Scott, an evangelical along with me, identified himself as a Democrat in high school – and I was so disappointed in him. I thought he had rejected the “truth” of both our families of origin, merely for the sake of being rebellious. I didn’t question what I was raised with, because it sat quite comfortably with me. I could demonize “the other.”
I don’t want to infer that I am inferior to Scott or to Becca because I didn’t “come around” as soon as they did. More importantly, I don’t want to infer that you are inferior to any of us for having different beliefs or worldviews. All of us are on our own journeys.
The point I want to make is that stubborn tardiness seems to run in my blood. I’ve been convicted of plenty of things in my life, that I chose to ignore for years and years. Right now, my issue-at-hand is animal cruelty – an issue I’ve been aware of for a long time. Four or five years ago, I was confronted with my own homophobia and began to dissect and work through that.
We’re all in process. We’ve all got an awful lot to get through. I’m not self-loathing or anything. I just seem to be late to the game, more often than not.
Wait up! I’m coming…
“O Lord, if I have found favor in your eyes… then let the Lord go with us. Although this is a stiff-necked people, forgive our wickedness and our sin, and take us as your inheritance.”