I'm Afraid of the Truth...

Pickypants commented:
The only thing dangerous about questions is the fear that you approach the answers with. Sounds like you are unafraid of the truth, which is the best place to be if you are asking these kinds of questions.

Actually, I've got all sorts of fear! Scripture says, "Perfect love casts out fear. Whoever fears has not been made perfect in love," (1 John 4:18) but I've got a long way to go toward any kind of perfection.

These questions scare the hell out of me, and so do their answers. In fact, the prospect of finding out what the truth realy is - I confess - brings a little fear into my heart. But I feel somewhat justified, reminded in Philippians 2:12 to "work out your salvation in fear and trembling." Good, fear is part of the process.

But somehow, authenticity demands I keep asking the questions. It's part of who I am. Here's what allows me to keep asking, even when it seems dangerous, impious or reckless: I have faith in the One who knows me and calls me by name. I don't know everything there is to know about this God. Or even Jesus. But in the same way, I love and trust my wife and would put my life in her hands. There are parts of her I will never fully know. If I were to one-day find that she had changed her name years before we met - I wouldn't stop loving her. I wouldn't believe her love was a lie. I would say, "oh, I've been calling you Jenny and your birth name is Oprah. Which would you like me to call you, sweetheart? "

That's the conversation I plan on having with God if I find out God's been using an alias...

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